Well bad news for me again….on Monday I feel down the bloody stairs as I tripped on Rachel’s shoe while carrying the washing basket. I told her to move thous shoes even worse, I saw the shoe and took a big step over them but I miss calculated and tripped over anyway.
So I hurt back and it is getting worse. Today I can barely move and is all numb down left side of my leg. It hurts walking, hurts sitting, I can’t function, and driving hurts I am broken. I have an old back injury so I think it is flared up big time. I am the main income earner for the house and I can’t work so money will be tight and I can’t even do house work I am stuck to the bloody bed. I am going to see the GP today I need some type of relief. I can’t just keep crying all day and having panadol. I feel like such an idiot.
Sorry to rant am just so disappointed in myself like life is going to be tough when I am on maternity leave let alone now because I am disabled and can’t walk at 7 weeks.
I got into the doctor this morning couldn’t see my normal GP so had to see the most poor GP in the universe. He was the same one who said horrid things to me when I had the miscarriage. I had to drive to the surgery but I couldn’t weight bear on my left leg so I couldn’t push the clutch without my hand pushing down my leg and it was so painful. I had Jake with me as well so his noises just added to the pain running through my back. I couldn’t get a park so we had to walk lucky we went early as it took ages to walk there.
Once we arrived I was already crying we had 4 people in front of us and cried the whole time as Jake threw massive tantrums and yelling at me and I couldn’t do a thing to stop him.
Once we got in I was bawling and Jake was screaming. The doctor looked at my back and said I needed an x-ray when I said I was pregnant he questioned which other GP I was seeing as he was unaware I was pregnant. Prick! Then he refused to give me any pain relief or anti inflammaties. In the end after him insulting the fact I am damaging my baby with anti depressants he gave me a script for Tramadol. He made me feel so guilty by the time I left I was crying from guilt.
I drove extra far to the chemist so I wouldn’t have to walk as far and got the meds and some extras. Came home took my meds and feel asleep for hours on end.
3 things have happened now (bad scan, car broke down, hurt back) so can I get better now enjoy my pregnancy and move on without any problems PLEASE
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